Adult Themes, Caberet, Growing Up, Inspired by a Place, Introspective, Jazz, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Relationships, Unrequited, Wistful, Young Love

Dead Inside

Dead inside
That’s how I turned out
Dead inside
I don’t know what I’m about
I have no idea how I got this way
But here you are asking me today

If I remember a time when I felt well
But I promised I would never ever tell

I cannot unpack all those feelings
Locked so deep inside of me
I hear them rumble and they tumble
No one ever helped me find the key
It sunk like an old pirate’s chest
Somewhere in the middle of the sea
The younger me is chained to it, and
couldn’t figure out how to break free

Dead inside
He’s just a kid and nobody knew
Dead inside
No one can rescue him, not even you
I have no idea if anything you say
Will break the chains, rusted & gray

I know I blocked a time when I felt well
I gave my word I would never ever tell

I cannot unpack all those feelings
Locked so deep inside of me
I hear them rumble and they tumble
No one ever helped me find the key
It sunk like an old pirate’s chest
Somewhere in the middle of the sea
The younger me is chained to it, and
Died trying desperately to break free

He’s dead inside
He’s a part of who I’ve become
Dead inside
It’s OK to me if I’m forever numb
I have idea why I need to sit & talk
I’d rather wander alone on the Boardwalk

It’s where I discovered I wasn’t well
And then remembered I shouldn’t tell

I wanna unpack all those feelings
Locked so deep inside of me
And they rumble and they tumble
I’ve been looking for the silver key
That sunk like an old pirate’s chest
Somewhere in the middle of the sea
Meanwhile the older me is out here
And what’s dead inside
What’s dead inside
Is the dream of what she and I
Will never in our lifetime be

January 15, 2019

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Adult Themes, Country Song, Folk Ballad, Love, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Nostalgia, Relationships, Romance

Good God, I Love You

Those eyes, that hair
The way you laugh at me
when I crack a joke
God, I love this
God, I love you

Those lips, that smile
The way you look at me
as you eat an artichoke
God, I love this
God, I love you

We’re so different
Much different
than I thought we’d be
We’re so different
but this ain’t a complaint
I’m so honored & grateful
you’ve carefully chosen me

Those cheeks, that chin
The way you reach for me
as we listen to some folk
God, I love this
God, I love you

We’re so different
Much different
than I hoped we’d be
We’re so different
but I adore you so much
I’m faithfully yours, like
burning sands are to the sea

Those cheeks, that chin
The way you sweetly kiss me
As we enjoy our bathtub soak
God, I love us
God, I love this
Good God, I love you

Good God, I love you

January 12, 2019

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About Family, Adult Themes, Autobiographical, Folk Ballad, Growing Up, Inspired by College, Introspective, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Nostalgia, Rites of Passage, Wistful

Beach in Seabright

I look at our kids
I look at my wife
I think to myself
What a wonderful life

We have a house
A couple of cars
I feel so grateful
as I stare at the stars

And I know time is moving
faster than I’d like
I know it’s been a while since
I’ve been on my bike
I also know all of this
is what I’d dream about
As I’d head out with my friends
night after night
Searching for the one
with sweetness and light
At bars nearby
the beach in Seabright

I didn’t see her comin’
but I fell hard & fast
I was confident & cool
Prayin’ we would last

And I sure as hell got lucky
We’ve now been together for so long
When I think we’re gonna break up
I discover I’m so, so wrong

And I know time is moving
faster than desired
II know it’ll be a while
before we’re retired
I also know all of this
is what I hoped for as a teen
As I’d go out with my friends
on Saturday nights
Looking for more
than sweetness and light
At those bonfires on
the beach in Seabright

I look at our kids
and who I’ve become
I didn’t end up where
Mom & Dad were from

This journey I’m on
with my loving family
is the best damn thing
That’s happened to me

And I know time is moving
faster than I’d like
It’s been a while since
I’ve ridden that bike
I also know all of this is
all I’d ever need or want
Someday I’ll take them all to
that yacht harbor restaurant
Where I’d admire everyone
with sweetness and light
who grew up like me at
that beach in Seabright

Who grew up like me at
that beach in Seabright

December 27, 2018

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Adult Themes, Americana, Country Song, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Optimism, Wistful

If I Only Had a Truck

I’ve got my T-Shirt, it’s whiter than I’ll ever be
I’ve got my worn out boots just customized for me
I’ve got my work-worn jeans from my ten hour days
And my ol’ baseball hat promoting Chevrolets

Chorus 1:
And if I only had a truck
I might have someone holding me tight
like that girl I’ve known since grade school
who wasn’t impressed by my BMX bike
We’d go muddin’ out in the cornfields
and have sweet kisses out by the lake
I’d have it all, the girl and good luck
If I, If I, If I only had a truck

I was raised right, got myself mostly A’s & B’s
At the General Store I’d hear ’em shoot the breeze
Wanted to be like them – all those hardworkin’ men
Not like my beachgoing friends who’d go hang ten

Bridge:
Instead I learned how to work on cars
but I didn’t get to labor on a farm
And I took up pitchin’ in High School
but Senior year I blew out my arm

Chorus 2:
And if I only had a truck
Things would have worked out differently
When someone needed help movin’ stuff
They’d always call & count on me
Now I’m just a mechanic at a Quick Lube
and every day on my lunch break
I try to figure out how I’m gonna get unstuck
Man, it wouldn’t suck,
if I, if I, if I… only had a truck

Instrumental break, then

Chorus 1:
If I only had a truck
I might have someone holding me tight
like that girl I’ve known since grade school
who wasn’t impressed by my BMX bike
We’d go muddin’ out in the cornfields
and have sweet kisses out by the lake
I’d have it all, the girl and good luck
If I, If I, If I only had a truck

If I, If I, If I only had a truck

December 20, 2018

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Adult Themes, Americana, Love, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Optimism, Relationships, Romance, Wistful, Women

I Believe Her Now

She told me she loved me before I moved on
And I think I believe her now
She said she didn’t want to live without me
And I think I believe her now
‘Cause she’s in a hospital bed
I keep thinkin’ ’bout what she said
It’s rattlin’ around in my head
And I think I believe her now

I believe
I believe
I believe
I think I believe her now

She told me I’d never find another like her
And I think I believe her now
She said I’d remember the way we were
And I think I believe her now
‘Cause I feel so damn upset
And I’m ponderin’ what she said
I’m filled with a lot of regret
And I think I believe her now

I believe
I believe
I believe
I think I believe her now

I came home last night to my apartment
She was out front waitin’ for me
A couple of guys left her for dead
She asked me to take her to Emergency
She was black ‘n blue all over her body
She could barely see out of her eyes
She said they both sexually assaulted her
And I couldn’t help but empathize

She told me she’s sorry she treated me bad
And I think I believe her now
She said ever since I left she’s been so sad
And I think I believe her now
‘Cause what I felt for her before we fought
Is back in my heart and I love her a lot
She said she really wants another shot
She told me she’ll give me all she’s got
And I think I believe her now
No, I know I believe her now

I believe
I believe
I believe
I know I believe her now
I know I believe her now

December 12, 2018

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Adult Themes, Autobiographical, Country Song, Inspired by People, Introspective, Love, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Optimism, Relationships, Romance

I Don’t Worry Now

I used to worry about when I’d find true love
But I have you, so I don’t worry now
I used to worry about the job I wanted badly
But I have you, so I don’t worry now

I used to be so concerned
about the lessons I learned
About what I would wear
to get people to stare
But I’m not like that anymore
as long as I have a key
that unlocks our house
Life’s no sweat for me
and I don’t worry now

I used to worry about when I’d make it big
But you love me, so I don’t worry now
I used to worry about if I was enough
I’m enough for you, so I don’t worry now

I used to be so preoccupied
Buckets of tears I have cried
About those I loved and lost
My heart froze like Autumn frost
But I’m not hopeless anymore
As long as you’re by my side
I won’t ever have to doubt
’cause together we’re on this ride
Babe, you’re my life,
You’re what I’m all about
You’re my sweetheart
and I don’t worry now

You’re my sweetheart
and I don’t worry now

November 27, 2018

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Adult Themes, Americana, Country Song, Growing Up, Inspired by College, Lyrics, No Music Yet, Nostalgia, Optimism, Relationships, Rites of Passage, Wistful, Young Love

I’m No Longer Nostalgic For You

I used to look back with fond memories
of when you and I dated back then
I’d sit and look through your letters
and photos of us over and over again

But one day somethin’ snapped in me
Thinkin’ of you no longer made me feel blue
So darlin’ as you listen to this song
Know I’m no longer nostalgic for you

I’m no longer thinkin’ of your kisses
Or your pretty little porcelain face
Or the way you would hold on to me
in the stands as we’d watch a NASCAR race
I’m no longer wonderin’ where you are
Now you’ve found another good man
I’m no longer nostalgic for you, babe
I’m just lovin’ her the best I can

You used to tell me time and again, girl
That I’d remember us and what we did;
All those passionate nights at the lake house
That time you got pregnant with our kid

You miscarried – We quickly found ourselves
relieved and we decided we were through
Then we both started seeing other people
We both knew we had to find someone new

Now I’m no longer thinkin’ of your kisses
Or your sweet chocolate doe shaped eyes
Or the way you would look at me
as I’d stare up at the star filled sky
You said I was too much of a dreamer
and I’d never make it big with my band
Well, I’m no longer nostalgic for you babe
cause my daughter is my number one fan

And you can go on peacefully knowing
I’ve gotten over you and moved on
So don’t be nostalgic for me babe
What we had is now dead and gone

No honey, don’t be nostalgic for me
What we had is now dead and gone

November 16, 2018

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