How Will It End?

Will we come to the agreement
That we’ll never choose to agree
Will I abruptly leave you
Or will you coldly abandon me

Will I fall to the seduction
Of someone else’s charms
Or will you find happiness
In another caring man’s arms

How will it end
The story of you and I
How will it end
Will we say goodbye
Or will we stick it out
Through the bad & the good
Or will it end with us saying
We did the best we could
If we both have intentions
To protect, care for, and defend
This relationship we have
Then we already know how,
Yes, we already know how it will end

Will we think it’s all over and
Cash in our measly chips
So we can try to find true love
In another’s eyes and lips

Is the promise that we made
One we’ll never break
Or was it only a lie we believed
Is this all one big mistake

How will it end
The story of me and you
How will it end
Will we stay forever true
Or will we break apart
Forget what we’ve done right
Or will it end as an accident
And together we’ll head to the light
If we both have the courage
To stay lovers and best friends
Then we already know how
And there is no reason to care when
We’ll just love each other ’til then
And maybe, just maybe it won’t end

Maybe there’s no way, no how
no how, our love will never end
My thought is, my love,
you and I were meant to be, eternally
There’s no way in hell our love ends

There’s no way in hell our love ends

September 9, 2018

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Not a Big Deal

V1
We went over to the park that afternoon
And sat there on a bench by the pond
She came up with quite a few reasons
Why by month’s end, you wanted me gone

I looked down at my summer sandals
I knew truth from her heart was revealed
And I tried to hide what I felt inside
Then said, that’s ok, it’s not a big deal

Chorus 1
It’s not a big deal
I’ll be all right
I’ll find someone else
To hold me tight
To listen to me
And care about how I feel
Don’t you worry, babe
It’s not a big deal

V2
During my drive to Santa Cruz
‘n listening to a David Wilcox tape
I wasn’t cryin’ but I wasn’t happy
I felt she preplanned my escape

On Highway 17 during rush hour
A nail popped my front right wheel
I told myself I’d get through it
Said I’d be fine, not a big deal

Chorus 2
It’s not a big deal
I’ll call up a tow truck
They’ll be up here soon
I’m not eternally stuck
I’ve got a spare in the back,
Leftovers of last night’s meal
When a woman stopped, I said
It’s not a big deal

Bridge
But she said my head was bleeding
And could get me quickly to emergency
And I looked into her smoky mocha eyes
Sure enough, it was all meant to be

V3
The girl who pulled over ‘n rescued me
She’s now my wife and we have a girl
And I wouldn’t trade my experience
For all the silver and gold in the world

Sometimes she’ll say she’s runnin’ late,
Her workload lately has been so unreal
I smile as I tell her over the phone,
We’ll get our supper, it’s not a big deal

Last Chorus
It’s not a big deal
We’ll be all right
I’ll take her to get
Burgers and fries
‘n Hawaiian punch
I’m not gonna appeal
Don’t you worry, babe
It’s not a big deal

No, don’t you worry babe
It’s not a big deal
Not a big deal

September 5, 2018

Her Happy Place

When she’s had a hard day
When she can’t even speak
When she’s running on empty
So depressed, afraid and weak
It’s right there on her face
I offer her a warm embrace
And become her happy place

And when she wants to talk
She really needs to vent
Maybe it’s work or the kids
That’s caused her to be bent
I don’t go down our staircase
Or mess around in cyberspace
I become her happy place

I hold her tight
I say it’ll be all right
When she cries
I don’t criticize
I recognize
Her deep need
To be understood
I look into her eyes
And improvise
Words to catalyze
I empathize
And she smiles
Says I smell good

When it’s our bedtime
And our kids are asleep
And she looks over to me
But there’s not a peep
It’s right there on her face
Blessing me with her grace
Bein’ my happy place

Then I hold her tight
Out goes the light
And she reminds
me I’m her prize
Out of all the guys
Nothing materialized
But the one she
Wasn’t sure would
And I smile inside
With silent pride
Knowing she’s satisfied
Cause she’ll confide
And I’m her guide
She says that she’s
Struggled with motherhood

It’s right there on her face
She’s blessed me with her grace
I know I’m not off base when say
We’re each other’s happy place
We’re each other’s happy place

September 1, 2018

Oh Steubenville

It was the Summer before I started freshman year
I was invited to go on a week-long religious retreat
Thought it was neat that my church sponsored me
Maybe Jesus Christ was who I would meet

A small group including my best friend and me
Got on that jet plane and flew through the sky
And we ended up at a college campus in Ohio
It was then, when I discovered my own why

It was bright green
and it was fun
It was peaceful all around
And I loved
When we sang
I’d close my eyes
And hear the sweet harmony
I knew right then and there
On that glorious grassy hill
I’d remember those moments spent
In Steubenville, Oh, Steubenville…

Met a tall girl there who I really liked a lot
She had bright blue-green eyes and a pixie cut
Her name was Tracy, she was from Toronto, Canada
She held my hand tight and I hoped it was love

We kept in touch by mail after we both got home
But we slowly stopped writing letters as much
And when I started my awkward Freshman year
I started longing for another young girl’s touch

Who I had seen
In PE class
And I saw her
At every Sunday mass
And as we sang
I’d close my eyes
And hear the sweet harmony
I knew right then and there
It gave me a familiar thrill
It was like when I was with my friends
In Steubenville, Oh, Steubenville

It was on a December night out on the road
When he decided to pull over to take a nap
See, he’d been driving all night with a load
And in an instant, something fell into his lap

He was distracted and the ice hit his tires
He swerved, his truck wound upside down
I was asked to be a pallbearer at his funeral
So I flew out there to our humble hometown

We all wore black
I hurt inside
His Dad and Mom
and his little sister cried
But as we sang in harmony
I knew right then and there
I’d find comfort and always will
cherish all those memories we made
In Steubenville, Oh, Steubenville

It was the Summer before my Freshman year
I was invited to attend a week-long religious retreat
Thought it was neat that my church sponsored me
Maybe Jesus Christ was who I would meet
in Steubenville… Oh, Steubenville.

August 5, 2018

Lyrics Notes: In these lyrics, I explore the time I went to a Charismatic Youth Group Conference in Steubenville with a small group of High Schoolers and our Youth Group leaders. In this case, I wanted to add in a couple things. I fell for this girl there from Canada and that was pretty neat but I wanted to add something into the story that kinda brings it all together and the only thing I thought of was to add in a death of someone who went with us. This is a character but it has someone I deeply relate to… and it does reframe what happened on that trip but the idea is still the same and I look to move people and find common themes for people to relate to. It’s kind of a Christian “growing up song.” It is supposed to prompt the listener maybe into calling that person who impacted your life when you were young. Life is too short to not reach out to people who are special to you.

Get Out of Town

She said she was in love with me
I am positive now she had lied
She said she was feeling feelings
She couldn’t keep them inside

She had me meet her Momma
She introduced me to her Dad
But this is what he said to me
During the only talk we ever had

He said get out of town
My daughter’s not right for you
She’s too young and inexperienced
I’m afraid you’ll break her heart in two
I looked at him and his college degrees
in frames hung on his office wall
Feeling so shot down and small
and said, “Can I just be her escort
to her future debutante ball?”

He agreed I should and we shook hands
And she looked so sweet that night
But when I explained I was moving away
She got upset and we had an awful fight

She was yelling and making a scene
She threw her drink in my stunned face
And all I could do was stand there
As she stormed out of the place

She said get out of town
Go on then, don’t ever come back
I’ll find a better boy and you’ll be sorry
I don’t know why I fell like that
And it broke me, I felt ashamed
Doing what her Dad told me to do
But if I hadn’t done all of that
I wouldn’t have ended up with you

Solo Break, then

She said get out of town
Go on then, don’t ever come back
I’ll find a better boy and you’ll be sorry
I don’t know why I fell like that
And it broke me, I felt ashamed
Doing what her Dad told me to do
But if I hadn’t done all of that
I wouldn’t have ended up with you

No, if I hadn’t done all of that
I wouldn’t have ended up with you
No, if I hadn’t done all of that
I wouldn’t have ended up with you.

April 18, 2018

You Should Have Seen Your Face (2nd Draft)

It was a moment I’ll never forget
That summer sun had already set
The sidewalk was a little wet
You should have seen your face

When we bumped into your old flame
You said you couldn’t remember his name
And he thought you were playing a game
You should have seen your face

When he explained to you who he was
And where you both went to school
The apartment where you and he
had been settling down
The places you used to go
The people you used to know
All things you never told me
like why you bought a wedding gown

We must have stood there for an hour
As he reminded you of your favorite flower
Of your favorite restaurant on Gower
How what was so sweet became so sour
But the memory of his love for you
you couldn’t (or wouldn’t) place

But you should have seen your face
You should have seen your face

April 16, 2018

The Songs We Wrote That Summer

The first one we wrote, it was when we met
It was a Meet Cute you and I will never forget
It had humor involving food staining your dress
and us laughing hysterically as we cleaned the mess

The second one we wrote on our coffee shop date
We could have cut it short, but we stayed late
I was too shy to kiss you before you opened your door
It just seemed to me like you didn’t want anything more

We waited a bit before we wrote another one
But the third time was with friends and it was fun
The four of us got together, wrote it in a dive bar
where we all had some beers, you got out your guitar

The songs we wrote that Summer
We went all-in on and did our best
They were filled with emotion and were sincere
And I thought you were pleased how we progressed
But as we wrote more, they started sounding the same
The candle we once were then had a burned out flame
Now sometimes I wonder whatever became
of you and all your ambitious dreams
And those songs we wrote that Summer
with with all those lovely and romantic themes

That time we went to the local Beach Boardwalk
Intimate conversations evolved from our small talk
We shared our deepest hopes yet romance didn’t grow
We just couldn’t move forward, we were at a plateau

Yet I’ll never talk badly about them or you, dearest
‘Cause I cherish those nights we passionately kissed
You filled my notebooks and life with our history
but what it will all mean to others is a mystery

The songs we wrote that Summer
we went all-in on and did our best
They were filled with emotion and were sincere
I thought you were happy with how we progressed
But as we wrote more, they started sounding the same
The candle we once were had a burned out flame
And though I wonder why they became what they became
All our ballads and those youthful dreams
Those songs we wrote that Summer
I’ll listen for you singing them in the ocean and streams

Hope I’ll hear you singing them in the oceans and streams.

March 31, 2018