I Turn to Songs

When I’ve gone through a bad breakup
When my heart is burning like hell
When I feel my life’s in a dumpster
When I think I have nothing in my well

I look through my music collection
and I throw something on to relax
It helps me cope, that acoustic folk
Or something smooth like great sax

I turn to songs
I turn to songs
Songs don’t hurt me
Like many people do
I turn to songs late at night
When I’m not feeling right
When I’m beyond a little blue
When I’m crying inside
For love I’ll always need from you
Oh, I turn to songs, those sweet songs
Because they always come through

There are none like those I listened to
When I was just a kid at seventeen
They got me through the tough times
Dealing with people who were mean

I got tired of the Pop Music machine
So I started buying Punk & Blues
I knew the words to those tunes
Felt the singers walked in my shoes

I turned to songs
I turned to songs
Those songs affect me
So many of them do
I play them in my truck
And my life doesn’t suck
My thinking is no longer blue
I’m longer crying inside
I know I can give my love to you
Through my songs, my love songs
Like them, I’ll always come through

For you, I’ll always come through

October 28, 2019

Pre-Divorce Country Song

Can she love me
Even though I make minimum wage
As a late night Rideshare driver
& writing daily like a true sage
Will she want me
When I spend less time with her
& hang out with my buddies
Lately, I haven’t been so sure

Cause she’s been textin’
Who I believe is another man
& when I ask about it
She says I wouldn’t understand
It’s her Brother, Mother or best friend
Can’t we just go back to when
Facebook wasn’t on our phones
It was a simpler time back then

We’d talk at supper
About our day & how it was
Now we always get take out
Our sink is filled up just because
We don’t clean them up
We’re too lazy now to care
My clothes smell like alcohol
& she’s got on my underwear

Cause she’s been textin’
Who I believe is another man
& when I ask about it
She says I wouldn’t understand
It’s her Brother, Mother or best friend
Can’t we just go back to when
We weren’t so addicted to phones
It was a simpler time back then

If she can love me
Through our trials day after day
I know I will make a killin’
Cause I’ve got all this stuff to say

If she’ll hang in there
Stead of lettin’ go and movin’ on
Stead of plannin’ to be gone
Stead of parkin’ on the lawn
She’ll know I don’t want another Mom
& I don’t wanna keep livin’ out this
unhealthy, awful & toxic
pre-divorce country song

No we can’t keep livin’ out this
unhealthy, awful & toxic
pre-divorce country song

October 26, 2019

Don’t Forget Your Key

You’re heading off to college this morning
I got up early so we could talk before you go
I’ve made pancakes with chocolate chips
And wrapped something up with a bow
I know I haven’t been the greatest father
I missed some softball games you’ve played
That whole year I spent away in California
Wasn’t the smartest decision that I made

And I’m sorry for all the disagreements
About those boys who weren’t right for you
I’m sorry for grounding you on weekends
For something you said you couldn’t do
I’m sorry for saying you’ve lost my trust
And I’m sorry for just about everything
I did to force you who I wanted you to be
I hope you like what’s outside in the drive
And one more thing, don’t forget your key

You’ve liked my Chevy since you were eleven
But I didn’t let you drive it, you got a Bug
I was too overprotective and domineering
Hooked on stubbornness like it was a drug
Your mother said you’ve cried in your room
Whenever I said your choices were wrong
Even when you snuck out your window
I kept it secret and didn’t want to hurt Mom

And I’m sorry for all the disagreements
About those boys who weren’t right for you
I’m sorry for grounding you on weekends
For something you said you couldn’t do
I’m sorry for saying you’ve lost my trust
And I’m sorry for just about everything
I did to force you who I wanted you to be
I hope you like what’s outside in the drive
And one more thing, don’t forget your key

I’ll tell you you this, I’ll miss you like crazy
I’ll miss hearing about each lesson you learn
I’ll miss those things you don’t think of now
Like the picture from Prom you had to burn
It was of you & the boy who broke your heart
Who left you for a mean girl you didn’t like
I hope you’re ok with taking my Chevrolet
To college instead of that 4 year old bike

Honey, I’m sorry for all the disagreements
About those boys who weren’t right for you
I’m sorry for grounding you on weekends
For something you said you couldn’t do
I’m sorry for saying you’ve lost my trust
And I’m sorry for just about everything
I did to force you who I wanted you to be
I hope you like what’s now yours in the drive
And one more thing, don’t forget your key

Oh,
I hope you like what’s now yours in the drive
And one more thing, don’t forget your key
You’re always welcome to come home
And visit your Momma and me
We love you daughter, don’t forget your key

July 13, 2019

Lake In Our Hair

Can’t wait to pack up all our stuff
For our trip of the summer with friends
Our boat’s cleaned up and rarin’ to go
Our brains need a natural cleanse

Chorus:
Up where the air is crisp & clean
It’s so gorgeous and relieving there
We’re so ready for that forest wind
and all that lake in our hair
Gonna have camp coffee & pancakes &
Bake some catfish on the campfire
Put on our best vacation attire &
Live without one bit of care
With all that lake in our hair
With all that lake in our hair

First thing when we get to the campsite
We like crackin’ open cans of craft beer
And set up our campers pretty quickly
Then we unpack all our outdoors gear

We also put all our comfy camp chairs
and get a fire goin’ for our next meal
Drink liquid gold from that little crick
It’s so much better than bottled I feel

Chorus:
Up where the air is crisp & clean
It’s so gorgeous and breathtaking there
How she and I love that forest wind
and all that lake in our hair
Baked beans & buttered sweet corn
Hickory flavored trout on the campfire
Wearin’ some cozy outdoors attire
Livin’ without one bit of care
With all that lake in our hair
With all that lake in our hair

From jumpin’ in the water & splashin’ around
Sunkissed skin, feelin’ so alive & carefree
Knowin’ everything I’ve worked for tirelessly
Is nothin’ compared to my sweetie bein’ with me

Up where the air is crisp & clean
It’s so gorgeous and relieving there
How she and I love that forest wind
and all that lake in our hair
We’ll be cuddlin’ in our camper, my girl & me
After ghost stories told by the bonfire
It’s worth more than anything we’ll acquire
As we’re snoozin’ in our long underwear
With all that lake in our hair
With all that lake in our hair

July 3, 2019

Lyric Notes: I had written this a while back, and it went through a few changes so in honor of Fourth of July, 2019 – here is the edited version. I’m thinkin’ Zac Brown Band here… Here’s hopin’ you get a little lake in your hair this Holiday Weekend!

The Better Thing To Do

Before you took a walk outside
And I never saw your smile again
We talked for quite a while
And fondly remembered when

The rooster crowed that morning
The grass outside was damp from rain
We talked about the pleasure we felt
We tried not to speak of the pain

When you and I both realized
We weren’t meant to be
When you couldn’t keep the promises
That you whispered softly to me
When we knew it wasn’t gonna work
No matter how we wanted it to
When we had to move on to square one
‘Cause it was the better thing to do

I remember holding your fingers
And you’d release them suddenly
The moment I tasted your lying lips
And stopped believing the mystery

I was in denial of what was happening
I couldn’t end it that August night
Now I know I should have been honest
Like I used to be when we’d fight

Like that night
When you and I had realized
We weren’t meant to be
When you couldn’t keep the promises
That you whispered softly to me
When we knew it wasn’t gonna work
No matter how we wanted it to
When we had to move on to square one
‘Cause it was the better thing to do

I sit here on our front room couch
And the kids are at their Mom’s place
Just woke up & realized I’ve been dreamin’
Cause I get to see your joyful face
I look into your sienna eyes
And those lips I love to softly kiss
You’re the one I can’t live without
The one I’d go crazy about and miss

If we realized that cold August night
We weren’t meant to be
If you couldn’t keep the promises
That you whispered softly to me
If we knew it wasn’t gonna work
No matter how we wanted it to
If we moved on quickly to square one
‘Cause it was the better thing to do

I’m so relieved we didn’t conclude
Saying fare-thee-well would be
The better thing to do

Babe,

I’m so relieved we didn’t conclude
Saying fare-thee-well would be
The better thing to do…

July 2, 2019

The Rebel

Everything went right but I still went left
Back home to live my life & do my thing
Then I took a journey I wasn’t planning
Met people who said I couldn’t sing

Took odd jobs like Front Desk at a hotel
Where I gave notice to selling ties & suits
Meanwhile friends who I was hanging on to
Gave me a stronger pride about my roots

Chorus:
I’m a rebel by nature
My ex-friend called it a curse
And when things got bad
They eventually got worse
Then I met a girl & got married
But there was this cross I carried
I was hungry for what I didn’t feel
I had the fear I wasn’t being real

Lost my parents,
Lost my courage
Lost my way
but then found a bridge
To what I still had
inside me to release
I’m still a rebel
but now I call it a gift
and know when I die
years from now
I’ll be at peace

Solo then back to Chorus & last section.

June 26, 2019

Sweet Oahu

V1:

Way back in August of 2002
We went on our honeymoon
To an island far from LA
It was the perfect getaway

We met Don Ho and his family
We walked a lot by the sea
Took a cruise out on the ocean
Covered each other with lotion

Chorus:

Sweet Oahu
We so enjoyed it there
It’s where we didn’t have a care
Where we relaxed and took in some rays
Where we’d wear our Hawaiian flower leis
Where we’d kiss & watch the sunsets
Where life is as good as it ever gets
Where we had no major plans or stress
Where it was ok to not have anything to do
Sweet Oahu, we loved you
We loved you, We loved you.

V2:

We’ve haven’t been back for years
But we still have our souvenirs
And remember everything we did
We also had a couple of kids

Got through love’s rougher waves
Like we promised on our wedding day
Now we’re ready to take another vacay
To take our girls to Honolulu Bay

Chorus:

Sweet Oahu
We so enjoyed it there
Where we didn’t have a care
Where we relaxed & took in some rays
Where we’d wear our Hawaiian flower leis
Where we’d kiss & watch the sunsets
Where life is as good as it ever gets
Where we had no major plans or stress
Where it was ok to not have anything to do
Sweet Oahu, we loved you

Bridge:

I can’t wait to see their laughing faces
when we show them all our favorite places
Where they’ll play in the Hawaiian Village pool
Where they’ll forget ’bout going back to school….

Chorus:

Sweet Oahu
We so enjoyed it there
Where we didn’t have a care
Where we relaxed & took in some rays
Where we’d wear our Hawaiian flower leis
Where we’d kiss & watch the sunsets
Where life is as good as it ever gets
Where we had no major plans or stress
Where it was ok to not have anything to do
Sweet Oahu, we love you
We love you, We love you

Sweet Oahu

June 2, 2019

One Who Totally Got Me

For my life-giving wife, Melanie Ann Gray

Back in those days I had major issues
When I found a message in my inbox
You grew up in a small town like I did
I was living at home but on the rocks
I was chasing women & drinkin’ heavy
‘Cause each girl wasn’t right for me
As soon as I saw your email I was taken
By your sweetness & refreshing honesty

You saw me through all my trials
You listened to me when I had enough
And told me everything would be ok
You still know exactly what I need to do
The one who totally got me was you

You and I started talking a lot via texting
Not on smartphones, they weren’t out yet
It was via chatting on Yahoo messenger
You said you once danced & played clarinet
You told me you had two older brothers
That intrigued me my dear, ’cause so did I
You didn’t get all the way through college
And recently had broken up with a guy

You saw me through all my trials
You listened to me when I had enough
And told me everything would be ok
You knew exactly what I needed to do
The one who totally got me was you

So I paid attention like a good man should
And we met a year later in a golfing town
I know I should have never kept you waiting
But when I walked in I didn’t see a frown
And we spent all day talking like schoolkids
We ended that night closer than before
We kept dating and eventually got married
We were banking on what was in store

We’ve had sadness but more smiles
You’ve become who I knew you were
I hope you’re happy with what we have
I’ve done what I’ve thought I should do
And I’ll love you beyond this life
My sweet dearest darling wife
The one who totally got me was you

The one who’ll forever get me is you.

April, 10, 2019

Sweetheart from Soquel

I once had a sweetheart from Soquel
Who moved across the bay from Carmel
We worked together at a local resort hotel
That summer she had me under her spell
I was a couple of years older than she
I don’t know what she ever saw in me
She already had her Associate’s degree
And loved reading all my latest poetry

We never know who’ll be right
Who’ll know us better than we do
Who’ll see the magic in our eyes
And never know how they knew
Why they were only passing through
Why they were only passing through

She said she knew I’d be famous one day
She knew eventually I’d move down to LA
She helped me polish my original screenplay
We’d go on drives to beaches in Monterey
She was my dear sweetheart from Soquel
While I was very shy, she loved raising hell
Others didn’t think she was a bombshell
To me she was, and she treated me well

We never know who’ll be right
Who’ll know us better than we do
Who’ll see the magic in our eyes
And never know how they knew
Why they were only passing through
Why they were only passing through

That sweet summer came to a close
We broke apart but that’s the way it goes
Where she is now only heaven knows
She haunts me like a ghost at my shows

We never know who’ll be right
Who’ll know us better than we do
Who’ll see the magic in our eyes
And never know how they knew
Why they were only passing through
Why they were only passing through