Who Am I To Complain?

Took a walk on the path we’d stroll down
The wind in my palm replaced your hand
I closed my eyes and fondly remembered
when we kissed as teens on the sand

And I thought about the memories we made
I reflected on the good times we had then
Tears weaved their way down my face
I was never going to see yours again

But who am I to complain?
Who am I to feel so depressed?
Who am I to think or believe
that I didn’t do my best?
Who am I to think I could stop you
from driving home in that rain?
Who am I to be so selfish?
And who am I to complain?

That stormy evening I said some things
I should have never said to you
I was jealous of your ex-lover
What else was I supposed to do?

What else could I have said, dear
to make you change your mind that night?
I guess I could have held my tongue
So you would’ve stayed without a fight

You wouldn’t have been so determined
to break up with me and head to your dorm
We could have spent the night together
keeping each other happy, safe & warm

But who am I to complain?
Who am I to feel I’m to blame?
Who am I to think I’m responsible?
Why am I feeling so much shame?
Who are they to say it’s all my fault
that you were found brutally slain?
Who am I to expect they’d understand?
Who am I to complain?

Who am I to complain?

February 11, 2018

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She Murdered Me

We met through a personal advertisement
In a local entertainment publication
After a few dates she invited me to
Come with her on a two-week vacation

It was all inclusive at a resort in Mexico
And it included an overnight cruise
Little did I know on that boat
It was my life that I would lose

She murdered me
She murdered me
Had no idea it was coming
My death’s no mystery
She shot me with a pistol
As I was sleeping in my bed
She murdered me in cold blood
I’m here to tell you I’m dead

It was hard to adjust to letting go of life
Being a ghost is really fun yet weird
I don’t like when I try reaching out to people
And instead of welcomed, I’m feared

What I’ve noticed is she has said some lies
About what happened that crazy night
I didn’t threaten her or grab for a knife
We didn’t even have a violent fight

She murdered me
She murdered me
Had no idea it was coming
My death’s no mystery
She shot me with a pistol
As I was sleeping in my bed
She murdered me in cold blood
The proof is my lead-filled head

She murdered me
She murdered me
Had no idea it was coming
My death’s no mystery
She shot me with a pistol
As I was sleeping in my bed
She murdered me in cold blood
Don’t believe what she said
Don’t believe what she said
Don’t believe what she said
She wasn’t defending herself
I was asleep in bed

Oh, I was asleep in bed.

2017