When We Make Love She Cries

She’s done all kinds of therapy
The kind I’m never there for
When she’s done I pick her up
She stays silent & I’m still sore

There’s things she won’t tell me
The kind of things I need to know
Without intimacy in our marriage
There’s no trust & nowhere to go

And when we make love she cries
And I think I’ve hurt her so bad
Then I ask her why she’s so upset
And she yells, oh man she gets mad
I don’t know if it’s me who’s the cause
I’m just tired of the many secrets & lies
And all I think about while she’s sleeping
Is why when we make love she cries

Can’t be my tender & soft kisses
Can’t be the way I massage her hot bod
I can’t believe our love is in vain
Or some kind of extravagant facade

Is it something that happened to her
A trauma damaged her so much
That she can’t handle our lovemakin’
Maybe she’s sensitive to my touch

Cause when we make love she cries
And I think I’ve hurt her really bad
Then I ask her why she’s so upset
And she yells, oh man she gets mad
I don’t know if it’s me who’s the cause
I’m just tired of the many secrets & lies
And all I think about while she’s sleeping
Is why when we make love she cries

The sad part is it’s no longer a surprise
When we make our soulbinding love,
No matter where we are, day or night
When we make our sweet, honest love she cries

The love of my life can’t tell me why she cries.

July 5, 2018

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The Emigrant Gap Bandit

See, If you could step right into my shoes
You would know why I am this way
You would know my complete story
Why I’m in this Reno jailhouse today
If you could see what I’ve been through
If you could live where I was raised
If you could step right into my shoes
You wouldn’t be actin’ so amazed

I was born up in the Sierra mountains
In a cabin near a town called Emigrant Gap
At first I loved livin’ there in them woods
But then later I saw it was more of a trap

I did whatever I could to get a ticket there
At eighteen I jumped on a train leavin’town
I found work with a traveling carnival
From early Spring to Fall we’d move around

See, If you could step right into my shoes
You would know why I am this way
You would know my complete story
Why I’m in this Reno jailhouse today
If you could see what I’ve been through
If you could live where I was raised
If you could step right into my shoes
You wouldn’t be actin’ so amazed

A girl I fell for was the only daughter
Of the Ringmaster who had hired me
That day I laid my eyes on that sweel gal
She was the cutest I ever had seen

Her eyes were wide as her lips hit mine
She thought it was love at first sight
But I got scared and left her behind
Even though I knew it wasn’t right

Then I ended up in some rustic ol’ saloon
Got stuck where everyone drank and drank
The longer I stayed, the more lonely I was
And into depression, I fell & then sank

See, If you could step right into my shoes
You would know why I am this way
You would know my complete story
Why I’m in this old jailhouse today
If you could see what I’ve been through
If you could live where I was raised
If you could step right into my shoes
You wouldn’t be actin’ so amazed

I fell into a gang of highly skilled bandits
One day we came across a familiar tent
I realized where we were & looked for her
I always hoped I’d know where she went

Then I found her being raped by a man
I grabbed him off her then saw his eyes
He said “Boy what are you doin’ here?”
I got out my pistol which wasn’t so wise

Then I shot that Ringmaster in cold blood
The gang left me there to face my fate
And by the look in her eyes I quickly saw
My heroic deed came a few weeks late

See, If you could step right into my shoes
You would know why I am this way
You would know my complete story
Why I’m in this Reno jailhouse today
You would see I sure deserve to die
Even though my intentions were true
If you could step right into my shoes
You would then know what next I’ll do

You would then know what next I’ll do.

June 25, 2018

Relentless Party Chick

There you are, Relentless Party Chick
You drink too much cause your man’s a prick
You’d rather get rowdy and dance on the bar
Relentless Party Chick, there you are

I’m here all the time & see you go to town
Settin’ up cowboys then knockin’ ’em down
’cause he’s workin’ all night, you get out & play
Then he knows you’re in bed sleepin’ all day

And there you are, Relentless Party Chick
Drinkin’ too much whiskey ’til you get sick
You’re a twistin’ tornado, raisin some shit
and you’re so damn pretty, lookin’ healthy & fit

But you’re hurtin’ deep inside
Fillin’ that empty void
And I’ve seen him here with you
Feelin’ sad and annoyed
I saw the red in his eyes
as he noticed the guys
Who hug you & touch you
It’s clear he’s gotten wise

So there you are, Relentless Party Chick
And there he still is, being a total dick
I saw him in here havin’ lunch at noon
with a younger woman he’s seen since June

That’s why you’re hurtin’ deep inside
Fillin’ that empty void
Turns out he’s just actin’
like he is mad and annoyed
I saw the red in his eyes then
but now they’re baby blue
’cause Relentless Party Chick
he’s about to leave you

Yeah, Relentless Party Chick,
he’s about to leave you.

May 2, 2018

Lyrics Notes: Shelly Peiken writes a great blog and has written fantastic songs. In her recent blog post, she talks about the promoting sexuality in songs and I agree it’s gone pretty far. Sex sells. But what about honesty in songs and setting up themes within them that can be the type that people can learn from? In these above lyrics, I explore a theme involving a party girl, her boyfriend, and the girl in-between. It’s a toxic relationship filled with dishonesty between lovers and total disrespect. I think exploration into themes like this will offset the fantasy and get more realistic about what happens in relationships when people would rather avoid the most crucial part of their relationships: The Truth.

You Should Have Seen Your Face (2nd Draft)

It was a moment I’ll never forget
That summer sun had already set
The sidewalk was a little wet
You should have seen your face

When we bumped into your old flame
You said you couldn’t remember his name
And he thought you were playing a game
You should have seen your face

When he explained to you who he was
And where you both went to school
The apartment where you and he
had been settling down
The places you used to go
The people you used to know
All things you never told me
like why you bought a wedding gown

We must have stood there for an hour
As he reminded you of your favorite flower
Of your favorite restaurant on Gower
How what was so sweet became so sour
But the memory of his love for you
you couldn’t (or wouldn’t) place

But you should have seen your face
You should have seen your face

April 16, 2018

The Songs We Wrote That Summer

The first one we wrote, it was when we met
It was a Meet Cute you and I will never forget
It had humor involving food staining your dress
and us laughing hysterically as we cleaned the mess

The second one we wrote on our coffee shop date
We could have cut it short, but we stayed late
I was too shy to kiss you before you opened your door
It just seemed to me like you didn’t want anything more

We waited a bit before we wrote another one
But the third time was with friends and it was fun
The four of us got together, wrote it in a dive bar
where we all had some beers, you got out your guitar

The songs we wrote that Summer
We went all-in on and did our best
They were filled with emotion and were sincere
And I thought you were pleased how we progressed
But as we wrote more, they started sounding the same
The candle we once were then had a burned out flame
Now sometimes I wonder whatever became
of you and all your ambitious dreams
And those songs we wrote that Summer
with with all those lovely and romantic themes

That time we went to the local Beach Boardwalk
Intimate conversations evolved from our small talk
We shared our deepest hopes yet romance didn’t grow
We just couldn’t move forward, we were at a plateau

Yet I’ll never talk badly about them or you, dearest
‘Cause I cherish those nights we passionately kissed
You filled my notebooks and life with our history
but what it will all mean to others is a mystery

The songs we wrote that Summer
we went all-in on and did our best
They were filled with emotion and were sincere
I thought you were happy with how we progressed
But as we wrote more, they started sounding the same
The candle we once were had a burned out flame
And though I wonder why they became what they became
All our ballads and those youthful dreams
Those songs we wrote that Summer
I’ll listen for you singing them in the ocean and streams

Hope I’ll hear you singing them in the oceans and streams.

March 31, 2018

Chocolate Covered Banana

Bartender, I’ve had a really rough week
The slopes here have been hard on me
I was wonderin’ if you could be so kind
to fix me one of the house specialties

I know you know how to make it
I’m sure you’ve done it before
And if you make it right for me
you will absolutely score

Give me a Chocolate Covered Banana
and baby, I don’t mean the drink
Cover it with extra syrup
Do it with a smile and a wink
Give me that Chocolate Covered Banana
It’s just what I need I think
It’s your Chocolate Covered Banana
Baby, I don’t mean the drink

I’ve come to this club several times
You know me very well
I love the way you comb your hair
and I’m turned on by how you smell

I love how you flirt with me
So I thought I call you on your bluff
Oh I know once I have it
I’ll never get enough

Give me a Chocolate Covered Banana
and baby, I don’t mean the drink
Cover it with extra syrup
Do it with a smile and a wink
Give me that Chocolate Covered Banana
It’s just what I need I think
Give me your Chocolate Covered Banana
Baby, I don’t mean the drink

Give me your Chocolate Covered Banana
Baby, I don’t mean the drink.

2009, Revised 2018